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I am different from what I was five years ago. When I was 12, I was the God in all my friends’ eyes, because I always got good grades on all kinds of exam and quiz. Everyone would ask me a lot of questions on Chinese, Math and English. I like the feeling very much. I thought it was my best accomplishment at that time. However, I could not be called ‘God’ now. Since I am not wise anymore like before. I have many problems on my study. I have no idea what to do. Why do I study those subjects? Do I feel happy when I do my best on those? Or do I only get tired while I finish them? About those questions, I never have the right answers. and I do not know where should I go? Five years ago, I studied, studied, and studied. I didn’t think about anything. But, I think a lot now. On the contrary, I have not done well on my exams for a long time. Should I study hard like five years ago instead of insisting on my strange ideas?